enjoy the ride

so this cycle jesse and i have been sitting back and "enjoying the ride". we haven't gotten all worked up. just been pretty laid back. i didn't think i was going to ovulate but i took ovulation tests 4 days in a row and the third one i took was my peak! yay me! other than that it has been pretty easy going. no blood work this month. so as we are trying and praying, we really aren't trying all that hard. as hard as that is, there is nothing more we can do really. it is in the hands of the good Lord above.
saturday night, jesse and i went to vincennes and ate fazoli's and then i had to have dariy queen! since ours here in town is no more it was a nice treat. this is the second time in two weeks i have made the journey to vincennes to have DQ! i will be so happy when ours is back up and running. so in the mean time vincennes it will be. we had a very nice date night. it was looooong over due and nice to get out of the house and out of town for a bit.
i have had a rush of emotions lately. moodiness as usual! lol! i have had a lot of resentment towards people that get pregnant "on accident" that are in no way shape or form ready for a baby. and here we sit delicately planning EVERY detail and are still waiting. talking to God has helped a lot. it has allowed me to let go of those bad feelings and become at peace with the situation. i know every baby is a gift from God and that there is a reason for everything, even if i do not know the reason right now.
thursday was our 4 year wedding anniversary. crazy that it has been that long. seems just like yesterday. and this coming wednesday is my 24th birthday. and i still get excited about my birthday! like a kid!
i am really thinking of going on vacation this summer. don't know where we would go but i have vacation time and jesse will soon so we need to go somewhere. hopefully somewhere with a beach!
sooo until then, we will hang out all mellow and continue to fall more and more in love with each other everyday! i sware i find a new reason to love him all the time. even the little things he does. i love jesse and i know he loves me too! just the simple ways he holds my hand or puts his arm around me.
life is too short to be all worked up all of the time. i love my life and all the people that are apart of it. thank you for reading!
lyndsey