our lives as we know it have forever changed

where to begin...it has been a crazy busy week and a half. the 19 was my birthday, the 20 my baby sister graduated 8th grade, graduation party at my dad's on the 22, helped ashley with baby shower favors the evening of the 22, and then we come to the evening of the 25...let me tell you it was a life changing day to say the least.
i was watching the finale of the biggest loser, jesse was on the computer...i decided it was shower time and called him from the bathroom to let him know i was jumping in the shower. so i decided to take a pregnancy test just because. as i was on the phone with him, the test popped up...PREGNANT! to say i flipped out is a HUGE understatement! since he was on the phone with me, i told him to come quick. we met in the dining room. it felt like i had to go a mile! i handed him the test and we both held each other and cried and cried and cried. we never thought this day would come! and finally it had. i don't know what i had expected the feeling to be when i found out, and i wouldn't change the way it happened one bit!



who to tell? who to call? we were both shaking so bad neither one of us could snap a picture quick enough. after gathering ourselves, i called my mom to see if she was home. she was leaving wal-mart so we had to be patient for 5 very long minutes! we met her at home as she was pulling in her drive way. we went inside after unloading all of her loot and i pulled her aside and showed her the test. the look on her face is one i will never forget. we both cried and held each other. it's an amazing feeling to tell your parents that you too will be a parent.
then came my dad, jill, the in-laws, and grandparents. but the biggest thing of all was to wait til sunday the 30 to tell the rest of my family. we had a get together today and i was finally able to tell the family.
i called the doctor the day after we found out and he scheduled an appointment for the afternoon of june 9. i then called the doctor back again to see if he would do blood work. his reaction was too funny! he said is 3 positive pregnancy tests not proof enough? i could have died laughing! but, he said, i'll do whatever it is that you want! gotta love him!
yes i took 3. i couldn't fathom that this was all real. i thought the first one was broken. the second one...well i don't have a real reason i took 3 but i did. and then friday the 28 i went with my best friend to get yet another test. i had to see lines this time. not a digital pregnant on the stick. and yes it popped up as soon as the pee hit the spot!
the best part of the whole thing is, i found a day-by-day development calendar on the internet and it said that based on my due date and my cycle, the most likely day for conception was may 13. may 13 was our 4 year anniversary. this baby is meant to be. it gave and still gives me goosebumps when i think about it. so i have goosebumps all of the time!
as for those people that say symptoms don't start til later on. i will be the first to tell you they start as soon as conception. my boobs are killing me. and as if i need any help up top, they are already growing. i am not the crying type, and i cry over the silliest things. i go from constipated to emergency dashes to the bathroom. and just the slightest bit of nausea. and i can smell things i never could before.
maybe it is because i am so in tune with my body right now. i don't know but this is the scariest, happiest, most surreal time of my life. i have never been closer to jesse. i have never been closer to my family. so many changes going on and this is just the beginning.
in the next few months there will be many trying times as we pick out names, furniture, decor and go from the happily married couple of 2 to the very blessed family of 3. one of the funniest things jesse has said to me over the past week is, you realize that come february, you won't be on lyndsey time anymore, right? you won't be able to get up at 6:45 to be at work at 7. haha! yes i realize but what better reason to give up my laid back "get there when i'm ready time" than a much wanted and much planned for baby!
to jesse, our lives are just beginning now. soon we will go from the young married couple, to the happy family of 3 that we have always dreamed and talked about. all of our hardships and trials have finally paid off. all the ups and downs have been well worth it. i could not and would not want to go through this with anyone else but you by my side. you are my rock! and i would do anything for you, just as i know you would me. thank you for putting up with me and allowing me the chance to call myself mommy. you will be the best daddy a child could ask for. it has been a long 4 years and i am so ready for another 80 with you by my side. you are amazing and i love you with all of my heart!