A Little Bit of Everything

I will give you the world if I had the power to do so, but that in itself is impossible.

I want you to have everything you could possibly need, but not so much the materialistic things. Life is so much more than money and royalties. I want you to follow your dreams keeping them in realistic means.

I want you to know who you are and where you came from. Stay true to yourself. Do not try to be someone you are not or something someone else makes you out to be.

Learn to trust in yourself and to trust your instincts and follow your heart. Do not let anyone or anything stand in the way of getting what you want. On that note, I ask that you have respect, be honest and sincere. Have compassion for others and always treat others as you would like to be treated yourself.

Please understand everyone is different. Live each day to it's fullest extent and know everything happens for a reason, even though you may not know that reason yet.

Know that no one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. And yes, it is OK to cry! Even the strongest person have their weak points in life.

You are truly a beautiful person, inside and out, don't ever let anyone tell you any different. Be strong and proud and believe in yourself and never give up. Life itself is a lesson...the more you live...the more you learn about yourself and life's ways. As long as you believe in yourself you will always succeed in what you do.

I will always be here for you, weather near or far. I know I won't always be there to catch you when you fall, but know you will always have a friend in me who loves you unconditionally!

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Anyway, it has be a crazy crazy day! My hormones are all off whack! Happy, sad, mad, peaceful, angry, tired just down right moody! Bless Jesse's heart! He has to deal with all of this! I find it hard to deal with myself sometimes, so I can only imagine how other's feel right now! LOL! I want to apology in advance for the words that may or may not fly out of my mouth! If I offend you, I am deeply sorry! Just please put yourself in my shoes for one minute! Want something so badly you dream about it and at the same time realize you have absolutely NO CONTROL! Everyone who knows me knows I say what is on my mind (not always a good thing!) and they also know I have SLIGHT control issues! (hey at least I admit it!) They also know how badly Jesse and I want a baby and are very good to comfort us (mainly me) when we get down.

To my momma: I love you and would never change a thing about our sometimes dysfunctional relationship. You are amazing and will always be who I turn to when things go completely insane! And they do on a fairly regular basis! If it were not for you setting me straight on occasion and at all hours of the night and day I would probably be in the looney bin! LOL! I think we very much keep each other on track! If I need to vent, call Mom. If I need to cry, call Mom. If I need to be spoiled, call Mom. If I need to be told I'm a selfish brat, again call MOM! What would I ever do without you? I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To my dad and Jill: Thank you for supporting me in all that I do. Good or bad I know you are there to guide me and give me advice, weather I like it or not, I know I need to listen! DAD'S ALWAYS RIGHT! (yes I said it and it is in black and white!) I love you guys so much!

To my Granny: Amazing, supportive, always there! I wouldn't change a thing and I am so glad you are finally closer and that I am able to talk to you about the things I am able to talk to you about. Not everyone can talk to their Granny like I can you! I love you soooo very much!

To everyone else, Glenda, Marcus, Amy, Paige, Cristy and anyone else I am forgetting, thank you for listening to me bitch! I know sometimes you just want to say shut up! And I do not blame you one bit! Thank you for just being there!

There is a special place in heaven for you! You are all angels on earth!

P.S. I am so blessed to be loved by so many people! And I never knew I could be so in love with a person! Jesse, you are my rock! Thank you for being you and standing by me through this difficult time! You are amazing and I fall in love with you more each and everyday for a new reason!